My Love Is Pure

My friend Katie and i. She was trying to prove that we’re the same size, but i’m chubbier than her!

This was a good night though.

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My best friend of two years and me c:

She’s pregnant!!

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I’m going to magic springs with my friend Annie and her fiance`. Trevor’s going to.

It should be fun. c:

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Big year part two

February and March me and Trevor argued AT LEAST once a week.

I also found out that my mom has cancer in February

And i found out that my grandma had cancer in early March i think.

April 1st, Trevor and i broke up, because i was having suicidal thoughts and he couldn’t take it anymore.

April 2nd, i told Elshon (my father) that we didn’t need to have contact anymore.

April 14th, between 3am and 6am, my grandma passed away. She was pretty much my first mom. Her and my grandpa were the only constant thing in my life. They never left. They were actually going to adopt me when i was 3 because i wanted them to.

April 17th, her ashes came home and we all felt better. That’s when our heeling process began.

April 18th, my niece, Aleeah, passed away from SIDS. My brother was the only one home when it happened. He tried to bring her back to life. And they tried for an hour to bring her back to life at the hospital. She was exactly a week away from being 7-months-old.

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Big year.

So, let me catch everyone up as to what’s been going on in my life.

On July 16th i met my father for the first time, my mum and i ran into him at walmart. We was pretty good to me, i found out that i was one of his eight kids.

September 25th my beautiful niece Aleeah Grace Sykes was born. I remember saying “If i love her this much, i can’t imagine how much you love her” i said that she was perfect, and she was. When i would speak, she turned her head to where my voice was coming from, she only did that with her mom and me.

On September 30th i started dating a girl for the first time, she was sooooo pretty, but she turned out to be crazy. No more girls for me.

In November i met Trevor, we became “official” December 2nd. We broke up for an hour and we said it would never happen again, we were really in love with each other. He gave me a promise ring in February, even though he wanted to get me an engagement ring.

I can’t finish this now, but i’ll be back soon to tell all of you the rest.

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Remodled my blog. It is now my diary, and only that. Hope you like.

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I know i’m not good enough

What you love about me is that i don’t try to be like everyone else and that i don’t care about what people think of my piercings, the way i dress, or the way i do my hair.

But now, all i want to do is change, so that you’ll think that i’m pretty enough…..

I know i’m not the prettiest girl you’ve ever seen, but i really want to be..

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Not excited about my lessons

I’ve been sooo stressed about it, i’m ready for it to be over, so i can see my baby <3

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Changes that will be made by the time summer gets here

My dimple studs will be taken out tomorrow, but no worries, i’m getting dermals put there in a year or two.

I will have two sternum dermals

I will be 20 lbs. lighter c;

My hair will hopefully be green again

My septum will be stretched to a 12g, so that i can get a mustache ring for it c;

And hopefully i will have convinced my mom to let me go up to a 0g.

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<3

So, yea, Trevor gave me a promise ring Sunday, he wanted to get me an engagement ring, but he want my engagement ring to have real diamonds, so yea c:

And he was talking about how he was surprised when his mom went to sleep while i was still there, and he said “She’s never fallen asleep with a girl here, much less my girlfriend, soon to be fiance`” :D

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Super disappointed.

You’re one of my best friend.

You have a baby.

You shouldn’t be sleeping around and smoking weed.

This just breaks my heart.

You’re way too good for that.

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I always feel like i’m dying when i’m on my period. Ugh.

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I want more followers :c

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Dear Trevor,

I want this ring when you ask me to marry you.

Source: Klassycat

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This will be me and Trevor someday, except Trevor will still have his loooong hair!

Source: skylarishigh

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